the trouble is

heroes

2008-09-15T22:07:00.003-06:00

you know, never once in my life have i truly wanted to be the hero or heroine. i always wanted to be the best friend of the hero. i wanted to be the samwise gamgee. i was always much more inspired by these characters. i want to be in the background, helping things run, keeping them up, holding them strong.

i want to be the drummer.

ta-da!

2008-05-01T20:17:00.002-06:00

sometimes it almost scares me that i am filled with such extreme joy when i get my knick-knacks set up just right. whoo boy.

so cold.....

2008-02-21T20:34:00.003-07:00

just so you all know, if you never ever hear from me again......

metroid is to blame. you can probably find my rotting corpse in some heinous passageway in norfair. goodbye forever!

favourites

2008-02-12T19:26:00.002-07:00

contrary to popular belief, i am not a canadian.

winter blows. i think it should stop after christmas. at least it's still light when i leave work, now, though. i really hate the short days. i've had it with winter. hyacinths smell so good. i am eagerly awaiting their arrival.

this blog entry was supposed to be about my five favourite songs, but now that i am here it feels far too complicated.

i like it when old people swear. i asked a patient today how she was doing and she said, "shitty!". it bums me out when older people still feel so confined to all the inane must-do's, must-be's, and proper behavior etiquette. if there was ever a time in your life when you can get away with anything, it is (and should be) when you're old. you worked your ass off your whole life, and being able to get away with stuff should be your reward. it is going to be mine, that's for damn sure.

i love valentines day, and i always have.

know what else i love? gone with the wind. sigh. jake vetoed my simply smashing idea of naming our kidd rhett. that's right. kidd. i do what i want. it's one of my more endearing qualities.

and THIS is why i never blog ( see current and previous posts ).

kitty cat

2007-07-25T21:44:00.000-06:00

i would like to have a cat. and if i ever had a cat, i would take lots of pictures of it. and of me holding it. and it would be good times. i wonder if it would sit on the newspaper while i was reading it. cats do that a lot, i think. oh, and maybe it would sleep in a drawer. they do that, too....i think.

i need to stop thinking about my cat. that darn cat!

oh, that just made me think that it would be really awesome to name my cat hayley mills. damn dirty ape!

per tye's request

2007-05-01T18:34:00.000-06:00

hi, i came back. hello.

the lilacs are out and they smell sweet. i cut my hair.

for work we zoom about in a little jet. it holds six people. i was the co-pilot the other day and it was very fun. i got to wear a head set and adjust some knobs and learn about auto-pilot and how to land a plane without going in too fast/slow/or steep. we were going about 300 miles per hour and we were 30,000 feet in the air. i was enjoying it so much more than anybody else there. i don't know if it's just because i live a somewhat boring life, or because i'm easily entertained...but i thought it was a kick.

i watched a nature special about loggerhead sea turtles. they can travel over 9,000 miles to find the beach that they were born on so they can lay their eggs. and they are not fast animals. as i was flying in the plane, i was so disoriented. can you even imagine how it is for this turtle in the open ocean? there's no landmarks, they can only poke their heads out of the water for a moment, and their eyesight is poor. they do it by instinct and magnetic fields. they just chug chug chug along. amazing.

swish swish

2007-03-03T20:40:00.000-07:00

the easy decision versus the right decision. i don't know what to do.

cognac is my new friend. maybe he will help me make my decision. i need friend's like this in times like these.

i am thinking right now about how everybody i know has this underlying sadness (to say the least). i'm sorry to everybody i love. i've done nothing to help. i don't really know how i can. all i can do is empathize, but that is not enough. i know. i'm sorry.

rotting corpses

2007-02-28T19:00:00.000-07:00

clackity clack clack, i drank my last beer.

i feel most at home in the desert.

i'm watching some penguins in the andes do a dance right now. i'm watching nature. oh look, now some flamingos are dancing. i, myself, am not a dancer. not at all.

in the andes, hummingbirds almost die during the night, every single night, because they temperatures drop so rapidly. they cope.